It is the responsibility of the researcher to obtain any copyright clearances. Permission to publish material from this/these transcript(s) must be obtained from the Supervisor of Reference Services and/or the L. Tom Perry Special Collection Coordinating Committee. [Notes added by transcribers are in square brackets. Dashes in square brackets indicate unclear words or letters. indicate words the author inserted to a previously written line.] [Note: There are several mistakes in page numbering in the original journal. These have been preserved in the transcription. He labels as page thirty-four what ought to be page forty-four and continues numbering from thirty-four at that point. Also, there is an error around page 121. He numbers page 120 twice in a row, and continues, again, numbering from that point.] MSS 3124 – Josiah Scarritt Journal Number of Pages: 153 ----- new page (MSS3124_B1_F1_p001.jpg) Journal Jct Scaritt [---] ----- new page (MSS3124_B1_F1_p003.jpg) Josiah A. Scarritt's Journal I was the Son of Nathan and Abagail Scarritt. My Parents were na- tives Connecticut. They were educated among the Presbyterians. Although they did not make a pub -lick profesion of religion untill they were considerably advansed in life, yet they were moral people, and taught their children to read and reverance the Bible, to keep the Sab. Day Holy, to avoid Lieing, Swearing, Stealings <&> to repeat their prayrs night and morning. I was their fifth Child and was born Dec. 16th <1790> In very early life I had set ----- new page (MSS3124_B1_F1_p004.jpg) (1795) (2) on death, and futurity, and thought I would be a good Child, say my prayrs, that I might be saved at last. Hence I was so exact in re -peating my prayrs, if at any time I awoke and was in doubt it, I would repeat them to be certain. Mean time I was much affrade I should contract the habit of swearing, by hearing other and used to pray wenever I heard a person swear I might be kept from it. I was taught also that God governed the world and ruled over all events; hence I was often led to pray for s[---]ess in my ----- new page (MSS3124_B1_F1_p005.jpg) (1796) childish plays & undertakings (3) But I used often to do many things I thought was wrong and feared when I said my prairs, I did it with to little sense of their meaning or relish for the performance. In the Month of March 1801. My Parents mooved from Connecticut to New Hampshire and seteled in the Town of Lyman. The Country being new my priviledges were great -ly curtailed for schooling and meetings. When I was about eleven years of age I discovered the the my ac­ -quaintance in general lived in the neglect of [corner torn] ----- new page (MSS3124_B1_F1_p006.jpg) (4)-ligions and if atten (1801) -ded to the subject I should appear singular. This led me to turn a deaf ear to the voice of Gods Spirit and I was resolved to think speak and act like the re[-] of the world. But while I was resolved to pursue t[-] course I felt sensibly checked by the Spirit of Go[-] and was taught I was wrong. But I loved vanity and [-] -ter it I would go. The Spirit of God still pur- -sued me however, and at times I was so sensibly wrought upon it brought [corner torn] upon my knees in secret ----- new page (MSS3124_B1_F1_p007.jpg) (1802) prayer before God. (5) At such times I saw the ne­- cessity of breaking of my sins and turning to God with all my heart. But sttill spoted I put it off for ammose con- -venient senason. All the preaching we had in the vicinity where I lived for years was that of the Calvanistic Baptist, and that but seldom. I was often convicted in hearing Mr. J. B. a Baptist preacher but could not understand the doctrins No revivals of re- the doctrin I heard preached. -ligions nothing said about Christian experience: trut ----- new page (MSS3124_B1_F1_p008.jpg) (180[-] 6/ I lived in a dark age and in a wicked place. It was in the [--] 1806 the Methodis Ministers fir[page cut off] visited the place where I then resided. Their labo[-] were blessed to the awake- -ning and correction of souls. My oldest br. Isaac joined them, the following Sumer and my Mother the next Jan. At this time my mind was m[page cut off] wrought upon. But soon I became careless and st- -pid again. However I thought the doctrins preached by the Methodis[page cut off] both rational and sen[page cut off] [corner torn] [-tural]. In sitting under ----- new page (MSS3124_B1_F1_p009.jpg) (1806) their ministry of the of Meth (7) odist Ministers I was led to believe 1.st All men are Sinners and by nature enemies to God. 2.d That Christ has died for all men to make an attone -ment for their sins, and reconcile them to God. And 3.d The only conditions re quired of us. in order to enjoy all the benefeits of this At. -tonement. are repentance and faith, and obedience to God. 4th' That in consequence of the Attonement of Christ the Gospel invites all men to come to God. through Christ and be saved. And that a one ----- new page (MSS3124_B1_F1_p010.jpg) (1806. (8) -ure of the Holy Spirit is given to every man to ena -ble him to repent of sin. an[-] believe in Christ. That he may be saved. And 5th That while the Spirit of God graciously enlighten[-] and draws all men helping their infirmities, it opera[--] irresistably upon none, but leaves them to the free exer -cise of their own choice eith[--] to comply with or reject the co[-] -ditions of the Gospel.– 6th That it is our duty to u[--] all the means of grace si[-] -cerely and persevereingly in order to our acceptance [--] God and salvation from sin. For notwithstanding we ar[-] ----- new page (MSS3124_B1_F1_p011.jpg) (1806) not saved for seaking (9) yet the promise is to such as seak and to them only. 17.th That the favor of God may be forfeited by sin, after it has been received so as to perish everlastingly. 8.th That if we repent, believe and persevere in the faith untill death we shall be sa -ved; but if we remain im- penitant and unbeleiveing or apostatis from the faith, we shall be damned. And 9.th: That consequntly all our salvation is of God thro -ugh Christ: And all our damnation is of ourselve through sin. ----- new page (MSS3124_B1_F1_p012.jpg) (8) (From<(10)> 1806 to 1811) This system of doctrins la a rational foundation for conviction. For while I be -lieved I should perish wi -out an intrest in Christ, I believed Christ was bo able and willing to save all unto the uttermost that would come unto God through him. And t while he waited to be gra- -cious and his Spirit was striveing with me, it was my study to break off my sins by repentance, an seek his mercy by be[-] -ing useing all the me of grace. But this I was unwilling to do. I had ----- new page (MSS3124_B1_F1_p013.jpg) (From 1806 to 1811) (11) , thirst for human glory; that which arises from human learning weath, and wisdom. which led me to turn a deaf ear to the voice of God in his Gospell and Spirit, and run the awful hazard of loosing my soul, while I sought happiness in the pursuits and pleasures o f the world. O the long suffering patience of my gracious God that led him to share and continue to strive with such an un- -worthy and rebellious crea- -ture. For I frequently was so impressed with a sense of of my lost undon condition by ----- new page (MSS3124_B1_F1_p014.jpg) (12) (From 1806 to 1811) nature it brought me onto my knees in secret before God. And indeed, I endeavored to keep -up a form of prayr by dily repeating our Lords prayr. But I was convinsed I di this without the spirit of true devotion; but to a- -bandon it altogether an live as though I had no God to serve, no soul to save, no heaven to ob- -tain, no hell to shun, I was unwilling to. And yet I saw a glareing incon sistency, in my asking God for mercy, while I lived (st in known rebellion again him. Mean time my con science would not alow ----- new page (MSS3124_B1_F1_p015.jpg) (From 1806 to 1811) (13) to run into many vices and and vanities, which many of my associates, practised. And yet I would follow them in other though contrary to the dictate of my better judgment. Thus my life was a contin- -ual war between princi- -ple and, practice, inclina- -tion and centiment. Thus I lived untill I was rising of twenty years of age. In the month of March 1811 I began to think more serious- -ly upon the subject of Reli- -gion. I then thought if there was any reality in- -it, it must be of infinite importance. I saw the ----- new page (MSS3124_B1_F1_p016.jpg) (14) (1811) most glaring incon- -sistancy in believing Reli- -gion was a reality, and offored to the children of men on such conditions as the grace of God would enable them to perform if they would seek it: and yet to live in the neglect of the appointed means of grace. Again from my own expe- -rience and observation I was fully sensible perm- -anent happiness can[-] not be found in the things of the world. And to believe God had forced men into existance with out their consent, and placed them in a condition in which ----- new page (MSS3124_B1_F1_p017.jpg) (1811) happiness is absolute (15) -ly beyond their reach, would be derogatory to the divine caracter. And since if there is no permanet happiness for man in the things of the world there must be in the the things of Religion, or there is none for him anywhere. Furthermore, I was concious [--] I could never know the reality and excellency of re- -ligion unless I experienced it. Nor could I expect to obtain it unless I sought it. And although I discovered the most of men lived in the neglect of religion, this was no reason why I should ----- new page (MSS3124_B1_F1_p018.jpg) (16) do so, as in the things (1811) of the world I had independ- -ance to follow the dictates of my own Judgment, unby- -est by the exhample of others. Again while I was seriously considering, whether I had best set out seriously to seek the Lord or not, it was sudges- -ted to my mind if I did I should not obtain his. But as I believed mercy was for all that sought it sin- -cerely, I saw it was in- -cumbant on me to make experiment of the truth of this sentiment in my own case, believing it would be a source of satisfaction to me in a dieing hour, that I had sought the Lord sin- ----- new page (MSS3124_B1_F1_p019.jpg) (1811) cerely whither I found him (17) or not. But I had another dif- ficulty in my way. I had seen some set in religion, and af- -ter a season forsake the ways of the Lord, turn again to folly and become worse than before they profiessed to know God: a fear I should do the same was one of the last dif- -ficulties I had to encounter But I got over this as follows I saw that while there was a posibility of backsliding from God there was no necessity of doing so. And as it was by unfaithfulness that others had backsliden, I ought to improve it as a warning against disobedience. ----- new page (MSS3124_B1_F1_p020.jpg) (18) After this reasoning (1811) upon the subject, I at length came to the dertermination to set out seriously to seak the Lord in the use of all the means of grace. Morning and evning I set apart for pri-­ -vate prayr. I layed aside the weekly News Paper and all other Books and betook myself to the Bible only. I now began to hear the gospel with a desire to learn the way to heaven. I placed a vigilent watch over my thoughts, words and actions. Soon after I came to the determiation to seak the Lord, one evning while at meeting, I felt an impression to make known my religious resolutions and request the prayrs of the ----- new page (MSS3124_B1_F1_p021.jpg) (1811) people of God. As I (19) had never had such feelings before, I thought posably it might be a temptation I would therefore postpone it for further reflection and if I was convinsed it was from the Spirit of the Lord I would do it at some future period. But no soonner was the opportunity gone than I was convinced the impression was from the Spirit of God and I had great- -ly grieved it by neglecting to comply with it. O what sor- -row of soul I felt in re- -flecting on what I had done. I plainly saw I ----- new page (MSS3124_B1_F1_p022.jpg) (20) had broken my re- (1811) -ligious resolutions, grieved the Holy Ghost, and aded an -other crime to my all- -ready numerous sins. And that it was owing to my unbelief and prid that I had done so. This led me to see more fully the wick­ edness of my heart, and the impotency of my spiritual strength. I saw more fully than before the necessity of being "born again,, of havi- -ing the heart of stone take- -ing away and a heart of flesh given me of having that "Carnal mind which is enmity against God,, tak. -en away and the "Mind which was in Christ Jesus,, ----- new page (MSS3124_B1_F1_p023.jpg) [corner torn] given me. I feared (21) however I had so greaved the Spirit he had taken his final departure. I however besought the Lord in prayr to pardon me that once and and send back his Holy Spirit, and enable me by his grace to perform my duty. Some weeks after this I was at meeting, and again felt a drawing to this duty. I arose with trembling, and made known my determination to seak the Lord and requested an intrest in the prayrs of the people of God. Th[corner torn] step served to shake me ----- new page (MSS3124_B1_F1_p024.jpg) (22) from the world and I [corner torn] renewed my covenant with the Lord if he would lead me I would follow him Several weeks passed away after this circumstance took place during which time I waited with great to obtain an evidence of my acceptance with God. At length while labor­ ing in the field, I was led to the following reflections Why is it I do not find fa- -vor with God, have I not sought him sincerely, in the use of the means of grace both publick and private? I plainly saw I had. Why then thought I does not the Lord convert my soul? ----- new page (MSS3124_B1_F1_p025.jpg) (1811) For a moment I felt (23) my heart to rise with mur -muring against God that he did not save me as I wished; but a moments reflection filled me with horor, that I should thus murmur against God, when I had spent more than twenty years in re- -bellion against my heav -enly Father and now be- -cause I had sought him for a few weeks, I should be found murmuring a- -gainst him, because I did not obtain immedi- -ate answers to my prayr. I now saw the Justice of God in condemning me. And tha[corner torn] ----- new page (MSS3124_B1_F1_p026.jpg) (24) his Throne would (1811) be for ever guiltless if he were to cast me off for ever. I saw also all I had done or could do would avail nothing in procureing my salvation. And that if I ever was saved it must be by the mear mercy of God. I now had a dis- -covery of Gods method of saveing the ungodly through faith in the Lord Jesus Christ. I saw I had put to much confidence in my own works, or in other words in the means of Grace, not that I had done wrong in the use of them, but I had not look ----- new page (MSS3124_B1_F1_p027.jpg) (1811) ed through them as (25) I ought to have done and trusted alone in Christ. I now saw the promise of salvation was to him that believed and to such only. My cry now was "Lord I do believe help thou my unbelief,,. Hope now begun to revive in my heart that I even I should at some future period believe and be sa<(ved.> At some future period? Why not now, if my sal -vation is an act of the mear mercy of God thro the merits of Christ, and the only condition is f[corner torn] ----- new page (MSS3124_B1_F1_p028.jpg) {26) in his attoneing (1811) merits? I now saw if I could but believe I should now be saved. Now came the turning point. The lan­ guage of the Word and Spirit of God was will you quit your confidence in all other beings and trust alone in Christ for presant and final sal. -vation. My answer was "I will,,. I then felt to sur. -render myself into the hands of Christ and trust in him alone for salvation from sin here and redempt salvation from hell hereafter The moment I did this I felt the load of guilt re- ----- new page (MSS3124_B1_F1_p029.jpg) (1811) moove from my heart, <(27)> and my soul seamed as light as a feather and o the Joy I now felt in contemplating the way of life and salvation throu -gh Jesus Christ. I saw it brought glory to God and peace and salvation to man. I now thought if the enjoyment of heaven wa[-] equal to the happiness I then felt, I would willing -ly serve the Lord in the most destitute and distress -ing situation, if in the en[-] I could but be accepted of h[-] ----- new page (MSS3124_B1_F1_p030.jpg) (28) Soon I began to (1811) reason with myself what it was I had experienced Shurely thought I it can -not be convention for I had previously thought if I ever experienced reli- -gion I should see some light from heaven or hear some audable voice adressing me. But still I was conscious it was some -thing different from anything I had ever be- -fore experienced. I thoug<(ht> it a token for good at the hand of God to pre- -vent my dispareing of the mercy of God. ----- new page (MSS3124_B1_F1_p031.jpg) (1811) I therefore thought (29) I would seek him more earnestly than ever. I now began to enquire for my load of distress I had before felt; but it was gone. This discovery alarmed me. For although I had thought at diferent times while I carried that load I had no real conviction for sin, and prayed the Lord to grant me that real goly sorrow for sin that neads not to be re- -pented of, yet now it ap- -peared to me I had, had conviction but had lost it ----- new page (MSS3124_B1_F1_p032.jpg) (30) But when I at- (1811) -tempted to pray then it back I was checked, as I had previously ben crying to God for de­ liverance from it. I then thought I would leave it to my Heavenly Father to give me conviction or con- -viction or consolation, Just as he saw fit. My mind remain- -ed calm, and peaceful, this al- -so alarmed me for fear I had grown stupid and secure. I now took much satisfaction in being alone, reading the Scriptures, and contemplating upon divine things. My con- -science was very tender. I was almost affrade to mingle with anny company, or join ----- new page (MSS3124_B1_F1_p033.jpg) (1811) in any conversation (31) for fear I should do, or say some- -thing that would offend my Lord. Nor was I less affrade of sins of omition than sins of commition. I went one morn -ing, soon after I experienced religion, to my eldest broth- -ers house, and while he was at prayr in his family, I felt it my duty to pray when he had done; but did not, I was so distressed on the account I could not compose myself to work, and left my buis- -ness, went to the house call -ed the family together and prayed, my peace of mind then returned. From the first of ----- new page (MSS3124_B1_F1_p034.jpg) (1811) (32) of my setting out in re- -ligion I felt it my duty to exhort in publick, but this was done with so much I had many trials about [-] being my duty. In the midst of these Mr. S- a congregations Minister preached in the neigh -borhood where I lived. This t(---)was the parable of the sower. When speaking of the " stoney ground.. heavens he observed "How often have we seen young persons so zealously engaged in religion, they can hardly attend to the common conserns of life, going from house to house exhorting their Neighbors; but their right- -eousness has prooved like ----- new page (MSS3124_B1_F1_p035.jpg) (1811) the morning Clowd (33) or early dew, soon passing away. Let these rather be exhorted to grow in Judgmen This had such an influence on my mind I concluded I would no more attempt to exhort in publick. After forming this resolution, I felt a loss of religious enjoyment and al -though I watched and pray -ed, and was faithful in the use of every means of Grace yet I could not regain my former confidence in God nor comfort in religion. After passing some weeks in this fraim of mind, I attend- -ed a prayer meeting at Con- -cord N. H. where in prayr ----- new page (MSS3124_B1_F1_p036.jpg) (34) meeting on Sat. Evning (1811) on hearing my brethren speak of the dealings of God with them and call upon his name ere I was aware I was on my feet declareing his goodness to me and exhorting my fel- -low creatures to come taste and see the Lord is gracious. At this Meeting the Lord greatly blessed my soul. on compareing my expe- -rience with what I had ben taught by Mr. S. I was led to believe the Spirit of God taught me one thing and Mr. S. another. I now a- -bandoned the resolution I had formed to exhort no more in public, and resolved ----- new page (MSS3124_B1_F1_p037.jpg) (1811) to follow on to know (35) the Lord as I had received him. After due deliberation and prayer, from a sens of du ty I offered myself to the methodist Society, and was received as a member on trial Dec. 21:1811. Among other reasons for Joining the Meth -odist were the following 1st: I believed their system of doctrin to be more scriptu- -ral than any denomina­- tion of Christians. 2nd: I believed them more devo­- ted in their lives than any denomination with which I was acquainted. 3d: I had received my religious impressions among them. ----- new page (MSS3124_B1_F1_p038.jpg) (36) 4th: I thought I should (1811) be morere likely to live holy here, and be saved hereafter than to connect myself with any other de- -nomination of Christians. I now punctually attended on all the means of grace, and grew both in the kn- -owledge and lovve of God. I had severe trials at times however, ariseing from a fear I was de- -ceived. One which occured the same winter I joined society. I will here relate. After being deeply exercis- -ed in mind, for some length of time from a fear I had not experienced religion ----- new page (MSS3124_B1_F1_p039.jpg) (1811) and having read much (37) in the Bible and other books, conversed with Ministers and private chris- -tians; but without obtain ing any relief to my mind. I one day had the follow -ing reflections "What would I do if I could be certain I had experi enced religion? I would seak more of it. How? In the use of all the means of grace, both publick and private. How long to my life's end. But what would I do if I knew I had never found favor with God? I would seak it. How? In the use ----- new page (MSS3124_B1_F1_p040.jpg) (38) (From 1811 to 1814) of all the means of grace both publick and private. How Long? to the close of life. Why then indulge this anx -iety about my past expe- -rience, when be that as it may, I see plainly it is my duty seak the Lord in the diligent and pers -evereing use of all the means of grace. These reflections delivered me entirely from all my trials on the above named subject and I felt a determination to go forward in duly trus- -ting myself in the hands of my gracious God ----- new page (MSS3124_B1_F1_p041.jpg) (From 1811 to 1814) (39) I had at times a very af- -fecting sense of the situ- -ation of situation of those of my fellow men who were destitute of an int- -rest in Christ and felt as though I would be willing to do or suffer any thing in my power to prevent it. Mean time my brethren interogated me to know if I did not think it was, or would be my duty to preach But as yet I had not suf- -ficient evidence. I believed if God called a man to preach he would convince ----- new page (MSS3124_B1_F1_p042.jpg) (40) (From 1811 to 1814) by the internal voice of his Spirit, and the external voice of his Providence. That it was impious for a man to undertake to preach without this call and, presumption in him to refuse when thus called I however felt more and more convinced it was my duty to exhort and pray publickly, and with this my mind was complete -ly satisfied. It was until 29th of May 1814. I felt any thing resting upon my mind which lead me to think it would be my duty to strive to preach the ----- new page (MSS3124_B1_F1_p043.jpg) (1814) (41) Gospel. On that day I attended a prayer meeting in the vicin- -ity where I lived, and was un- -usually blessed, after leav -ing the place of worship my mind was led to con- -template Athe grace and glory of the kingdom of God, and the pleasure and importance of of bringing men, to a state of reconciliation with God. I enjoy- -ed my mind remarkably well during that week. The next Sab. I went with my elder br. Isaac, who was a Local preacher and lived in the same vicinity where I re­ sided). Waterford where he had an appointment. ----- new page (MSS3124_B1_F1_p044.jpg) (42) In that place I was (1814) a Stranger; but feeling it my duty I exhorted after preaching and was much blessed. During the week my mind was deeply ex- -ercised about preaching it appeard to me the world of mankind resem- -bled a field grain which was ripe " already to hear- -vest. And he that reapeth receiveth wages and gath- -ereth fruit unto eternal life,, John 4: 35, 36. Pasa- -ges of Scripture now open- -ed to view in a new and intresting light, and it ap- -peard could I have an op- -portunity of speaking upon ----- new page (MSS3124_B1_F1_p045.jpg) (1814) them my views would (43) proove a blessing to others as well as myself, But fearing I should follow a wrong spirit I concluded I would dismiss these re- -flections from my mynd lest, by indulging them I should pursuad myself I was call of God to preach his Gospel when in fact I was not. to But immediately on make- ing this resolution, my light and joy, and peace departed. This led me to believe I was doing wrong to resist them. I now concluded I would make it a subject of prayr. that the Lord would ----- new page (MSS3124_B1_F1_p046.jpg) (34) make known to me (1814) a my duty and give me grace to do it. This I did. And when I lay pasive in the hands of the Lord willing to do his will whatever it might be I had access to the throne of grace; but wen I thought I could not preach, and would think no more about it, I was shut up, no liber- -ty in < prayer and > no enjoyment of min. Before the week closed I felt perswaded in my own mind the Lord would call me to the work of the ministry at some future period but when I knew not. The next Sab. I attended meeting in the vicinity ----- new page (MSS3124_B1_F1_p047.jpg) (1814) where I resided (3[-]) my Br. Isaac had an ap-­ -pointment to preach. But he being under pecu- -liar trials of mind at the time, declined preaching; I thought this a providential opening for me and feeling it strongly impressed upon me as a duty I ventured to commece. I spake with free -dom and was much blessed This was in June <12th> 1814. After receiving a recom- -mendation from the Class of wich I was a member I received licence to preach as a local preacher in Landaff Ct Dated Dec. 31:1814 ----- new page (MSS3124_B1_F1_p048.jpg) (36) March 4th 1815 I was (1815) recommended by the Qt. Meeting Conference of Landaff Ct. to the N. E. Annual Conference as a suitable person to travel and was admited on trial as a member on trial in that body the following June and appointed to travel Conway Ct. This was a le[arg]e Ct. embracing Con- way, Brownsfield Hiram, Por- -ter. Fryburgh, Lovell, Chat- ham and Bartlet. I traveled it alone and went round it once in three weeks. I took leave of my Parents, brethren and friends June 14:1815 to go to my Ct. It was hard to part with my Parents who were aged & infirm, my brothers & sisters whoom I loved ----- new page (MSS3124_B1_F1_p049.jpg) on the Conway Ct. (1815) and my brethren in (37) Christ for whoom I felt great affection and fellowship in the Gospel. Felt much de- -jected on my way to my Ct. and was tempted at times to wish I had not started. I arived at Br. Ste[iti]ns in Con- -way on Sat. June 17:1815. Here I met with. Br. Coffin a traveling preacher, who is spending a few days in vis­- -iting his relatives & friends in this place. Sab. June 18th AM Preached from Acts 8:35 Then Phillip opened his mouth and began at the same scripture and preached unto him Jesus,, ----- new page (MSS3124_B1_F1_p050.jpg) Conway Ct. (38) I endeavored to preach (1815) unto the people Jesus in his three fold offices, prophetic, priestly, kingly. The people appeared attentive and serio[us] In the P. M. Br. Coffin prea[ch] Mon 19th Rode in company with Br. Coffins to Lovell 15 miles Tues June 20th Preached in Lovell from John 3: 3"Ex- -cept a man be born again he cannot see the Kingdom of God". I had but little in- -joyment in speaking. Felt some injoyment in Class meeting & found some living brethren in this place. Wens. Rod 7 Miles to James Coffins & preached from Acts 27:23 "Whose I am and whom I serve" Shew I We were the ----- new page (MSS3124_B1_F1_p051.jpg) 1815) Lords by Creation, pres. (39) -ervation, and redemption. And should serve with fidelity and affection met the brethren in Class meetings and was blessed and comforted. Thurs. June 22d Rode 18. Miles to Chatham, visited one sick man on the way and endeavored to impress the necessity of holiness on all I met with and felt sweet peace of mind. Fri June 23d Spent the A. M. in studying and visiting. The people appear very stupid in this place our Preachers have labored much in this place; but there appears but little ----- new page (MSS3124_B1_F1_p052.jpg) (40) Conway Ct. Fruit of their labor. (1815 In the P. M. I spoke from 13:46[th] "Then Paul and Bar- nabus waxed bold and said it was necessary the word of God should first have been preached unto you but seeing ye put it from you and [guide] yourselves unworthy of eternal life so we turn to the Gentiles,, Shew tha the Jews by re- -jecting the Gospel lost it and all its blessings and so should we if we reject it as did they. Sat. June 24 Was refreshed by reading Pauls epistle to the Romans. Rode to Hiram 22 Miles. Sab. June 25th Spake from Ex. 8:20 on "Remember the ----- new page (MSS3124_B1_F1_p053.jpg) Conway Ct. (1815) Sabbath day to keep (41) it holy". P.M from Luke 14- 17 "Come for all things are now ready" After preach­- ing met the Class and found them low in religion. Mon June 26th. Rode to Porter 6 miles preached in the A.M. from Lem. 3d26 "It is good that a man should both hope and quietly wait for the salvation of God. I show what the salvation of God implies, pardon, holiness, and heaven. II We are to desire it, ask for it and seek it in the use of all the means of Grace and believe in Christ for it. ----- new page (MSS3124_B1_F1_p054.jpg) Conway Ct. (42) III Show the benefit (1815) of so doing. We should become children of God hear and heirs of heaven hereafter. I had but little liberty in sp[-]aking Tues. June 27th Rode to Effing­- ham. 5 miles. Spoke from 2. Cor. 5-17 "If any man be in Christ he is a new Creature I To be in Christ is to be united to him by a true and living faith II The affect of being in Christ We have new desires, affec­- tions, tempers disposition joys, sorrows, conversation conduct, nature, treasure. Wens. June 28. Rode to Browns -field 8 miles and preached from Col. 1:28 "Whoom we we preach warning every ----- new page (MSS3124_B1_F1_p055.jpg) Conway Ct. (1815) man and teaching (43) evry man in all wisdom that we may present evry man perfect in Christ. Jesus". I Preach Christ as being formed within his Children the hope of Glory verse 27th II We teach evry man the way of Salvation through Christ and warn them of the danger of living and die- -ing in Sin – And III That we may present evry man perfect in C. J. that evry man may love God with all his heart and his neighbor as himself. Thurs June 29th Rode to Denmark 6 miles. Preach[ed] ----- new page (MSS3124_B1_F1_p056.jpg) Conway Ct. (44) from 1. Tim 1:15 This (1815) is a faithful saying and worthy of all acceptation that Christ Jesus came into the world to save sinners of whoom I am chief" I It is a true saying C. J. came to save sinners from the guilt power, pollution, and conse­- quences of sin as appear from the prophecies which were fulfilled in him. The miricles he wrought and the numbers he has saved. II All men should receive this saying ie Gospel for all men are sinners and need it, all men may se[e]k and find it. I had but little liberty in speaking and was ready to cry out O Lord have mercy upon me for Christs sake. ----- new page (MSS3124_B1_F1_p057.jpg) (1815) Fri June 30: Rode (45) to Brownsfield. Spent this and the following day in reading and writing, read Mr. G. Wesleys Journal. Sab. July 2d. Preached in Brownsfield from John 3:3 I Show the nature of the New berth it implies divine [--] -nation and renovation II The necessity of the new berth because we are sinners and as much canot be happy here or hearafter without it. III The evidences of the new berth 1. We are enlightened to know God (& our neighbor) 2d We are renovated to love God 3d We are assisted to obey God 4th The Spirit of God witnesses within us we are the children of God. In the P. M Spake ----- new page (MSS3124_B1_F1_p058.jpg) Conway Ct. (46) the Parable of the (1815) sower. Had freedom in speak- -ing. I find my sufficiency is of God. After preaching met the Class. Mon July 3d Rode to Conway Tues July 4th The birth day of our nation I preached at old Sis. Willsons from Luke 12:32 "Fear not little flock for it is your fathers good pleasure to give you the Kingdom" Shew I Who were the flock of Christ Those who heard his voice and followed him. II Their fears there arise often from the No. and strength of there enemies from there own weakness and fewness of their number ----- new page (MSS3124_B1_F1_p059.jpg) (1815) III Show their proper (47) ground of encouragement. God, Angels, and good men are for them. It is Gods good pleas -ure to give them as much of the good things of the present life as will be for their good, and his glory, together with grace here and glory here­- after. I had a good season in speaking and it was a mooving time among the brethren. Wens. July 5. Rode 5 miles to Br. Randalls and preached to a few people from Mat 6:22 "[-]The light of the body is the eye: if therefore thine eye be single thy whole body shall be full of lite; but if thine eye be evil thy whole body shall ----- new page (MSS3124_B1_F1_p060.jpg) Conway Ct. (1815) (48) Shall be full of darkness" I What the eye is to the body the intention is to the soul. if therefore our intention be singly to please God our whole soul will be full of lite ie spiritual life & love; but if our intention be evil we shall be full of darkness, hardnes & Sin. Thurs. July 6th Rode to Bartlet 3 miles & preached from Lem. 3:26th Fri July 7th. Rode to Conway 10 miles and preached from Luke 10:42 "one thing is kneedful and Mary hath chosen that good part which shall not be taken away from her". I. Pure and undefiled religion is the one thing nedful II In order to possess it we must [-]st Be humble & penitant ----- new page (MSS3124_B1_F1_p061.jpg) (1815) 2d. Chose it above all (49) other blessings. 3d Hear the instructions of Christ in his word, providence & Spirit. 4th Obey Christ in all things. Sat. July 8th Rode to Br. Ster- -lins visited brethren on the way with whoom I conversed and prayed. Sat. July 9th. Held Meeting in company with Br. Mansfiel in the A M. Br. M. Preached from "Not every one that saith unto me Lord Lord shall enter into the Kingdom of heaven; but he that dooeth the will of my father in heaven" P.M. I spake from Rom 5:20 "But where sin abounded grace did much more abound". I The Apostle is here drawing the comparison betwen Adam and Christ the two federal heads of the whole human family. ----- new page (MSS3124_B1_F1_p062.jpg) Conway Ct. (50) II As Sin had abounded (1815) by Adam in destroying the image of God out of our hearts and bringing us under the curse of Gods law– Grace had much more abounded through Christ in makeing ample provision for the restoration of the im- -age of God in our souls, redeeming us from the curse of Gods law and makeing ample provision for our glorification in heaven. Mon. July 10 A. M. in visit­- -ing from house to house. P M. Rod to Loveel. Tues. July 11. Preached Eph 5: [4] "Be ye followers of God as dear children, I Christians are made the Children of God by [faded writing] [faded writing] option and regene- <-ration.> ----- new page (MSS3124_B1_F1_p063.jpg) (1815) II They should hear his voice (51) as their Heavenly Father and follow <(ie obey)> him in all things, III The motives to this duty 1st God comands it 2d. Their profession requires it 3d. Gods goodness to them demands it 4th. Their safety & happiness cannot be secured without it. Wens. July 12th. Preached at J. Coffins from Luke 16:8 "For the children of this world are wiseer in their generation than the children of light ie act more consis­- -tent with their principles. Thurs July 13th Attended the funeral of a young lady by the name of Ms Master (I think) and spoke with, liberty from Mat 24:44. ----- new page (MSS3124_B1_F1_p064.jpg) Conway Ct. (1815) (52) Be ye allso ready for in such an hour as ye think not the son of man cometh,, I Show what it is to ready to meet the son of man in peace. 1st We must be Justified by faith 2d we must be sanctified by the Spirit of God. 3d We must continue faith- -ful unto death. II urge this preparation by arguments & motives. 1st It is of infinite importance 2d: our time is short at longest 3d:Christ may come when we are not looking for him 4th: If he finds us unprepared we are forever lost. Fri. July 14 Rode to Chat- -ham and preached from John 3:3 ----- new page (MSS3124_B1_F1_p065.jpg) (1815) Sat. July 15. Rode to (53) Hiram Sat. July 16 AM. Preached from the Parable of the prodagal Son Luke 15:11- I The Sinner like the P. Son- 1st: Wishes to act mid expendant of G. 2d: Goes far away from God 3d: Spends the blessings o f Gods grace and providence in riot 4th: Joins himself to the Devil 5th: He employs him in sin & rebel 6th: In this situation he is most reched hungry naked. II Like the Prodagail he 1st: Comes to himself 2d: Compares his situation with the meanest of G. Servets 3d Resolves to return to his father 4th: Reduces that resolution to practice ----- new page (MSS3124_B1_F1_p066.jpg) Conway Ct. (44) 5th. He makes a (1815) humble confession he had sinned against heaven & before <(God> III Like the Prodigal Son 1st: His Heavenly Father meetes him while a great way off 2d Embraces him in forgives <(him> 3d Clothes him with righteousness 4th: Gives him an evidence of his acceptance with God 5th: Prepares him with grace to do his will 6th: And rejoices with all the hosts of heaven over his return to God. Br. Fly a local Preacher improoved in the PM. after which we held a conference Mon July 17 Rode to Por. ----- new page (MSS3124_B1_F1_p067.jpg) (1815) -ter on my way felt (55) the need of more holiness of heart. O Lord revive thy work within my soul and clens me from all in- -bred sin In the P.M. Spake from our Lords prayr. Luke 11-th Tues July 18 Rode to Effingham and preached from 1. John 3d:1.st. 'Behold what manner of love the Father hath bestowed upon us that we should be called the Sons of God" therefore the world know est us not because it knew him not". I Gods love to his Children in their Redemption, Re­- generation, [illegible] ----- new page (MSS3124_B1_F1_p068.jpg) Conway Ct (56) II The world knows (1815) not the work of God upon the hearts of his children nor their privileges and enjoyments for they new not Christ when on earth. III It does not yet appear fully what saints will be hereafter; but this they know when Christ shall reppear they will be like him who is all glorious in heaven. Wens. July 19. Rode to Brownsfield and found Mrs. Weeks rejoicing in the love of God she having experience religion since I was here liast In the PM preached from John 9:25 ----- new page (MSS3124_B1_F1_p069.jpg) Conway Ct. (1815) "One thing I know (57) whereas I was blind now I see I Sinners are spiritually blind 1st To their own caracter and state ie danger 2d: To the caracter & law of God 3d To the way of life & sal­- -vation II After converted to God 1st They are spiritually illuminated–Quickened and comforted Fri. July 21. Rode to Denmark and preached from Luke 10:42d Sat. returned to Browns -field, where I preached Sab. July 23d. In the A.M. From Mat 7:13,14 "Enter ye into the strait gate; for wide is the ----- new page (MSS3124_B1_F1_p070.jpg) (58) In the Conway Ct. (1815) and broad is the way that leadeth to destruction and many there be which go in thereat; Because strait is the gate and broad is narrow is the way that leadeth unto life and few there be that find it. I Show what is implied in the Strai gate 1st Repentance We must give up all sin 2d. Regeneration, we must be all renewd 3d. Obedience We must keep all the com. II Show how we should strive to enter in 1st By prayer 2d By faith 3d by the use of all the means of Grace III Why we should strive to enter in at the strate gate, and walk in the narrow way. 1.st Because it leads to eternal life 2d: The wide gate and broad way leadeth to distruction. In the A.M. Spake from Ps 84:11 "For the Lord God is our Sun and shield: The Lord will give grace and glory, and no good thing will he walk upritely. ----- new page (MSS3124_B1_F1_p071.jpg) (1815) in the Conway Ct. (59) I Show what is is to walk up- ritely. 1st We must intend to obey God in all things. 2d We must follow the Lord ful- -ly at all times. II Show what encouragement we have to do so. 1st God will enlighten us by his word, Spirit, Gospel, Providence 2d He will shield us from all our enimies, the world, flesh, Devil. 3d He will give us enlightening grace, pardoning grace, Sancti- -fiing grace, comforting grace, and glorifiing grace at last. Tues. July 25. Rode to Conway and preached from Ps 111th 10 "For the fear of the Lord is the beginning of Wisdom" ----- new page (MSS3124_B1_F1_p072.jpg) (60) On the Conway Ct. (1815) (1) Because it is contrary to the nature of God (2) Contrary to the will of God (3) Contrary to the Glory of God (4) Contrary to the safety and happiness of man II Show why we should fear God 1st Because it the beginning of wisdom. It will lead us 2.d To the love of God. 3d: To obey God and 4th: Ennjoy God here & hereafter Wens. July 26 Held Meeting at old Br. Bandels where I expounded the 8 Chap of proverbs. Thurs. July 27.th Preached at Bartlet Ezek. 33:11th "Why will ye die of house of Israel" I Showed Describe the death spoken of in the text II It is not temporal death for ----- new page (MSS3124_B1_F1_p073.jpg) (1815) on the Conway Ct. (61) all must experience that both right­- eous and wicked 2d: It is not moral death for all are allready dead in trespases and sins, and this was something future, and something they escape 3.d It was eternal death with God has threatned the impen- -itant Sinner. See Rev. 20:14. II Show God does not delight in it 1.st He has declared with an oath he does not see the text 2d He had made provision for the Salvation of all men– 3d He invites all men to come & be <(saved.> 4th His Spirit Strives with all men III. Show what is necessary in order to escape eternal death 1st. Sinners must repent of all sin 2d Be born again 3d Walk in newness of life IIII If Sinners do not thus turn they must and will die. ----- new page (MSS3124_B1_F1_p074.jpg) (62) on the Conway Ct (1815) Fri. July 28 Held Meeting at Sis. Willsons in Conway where I expounded Mat. 18.th Chap Sab. July 30:1815. Preached in Lovell from Col. 1:28 "Whoom we preach, warning evry man and teaching evry man, in all wisdom that we may pre- -sent evry man perfect in Christ Jesus." A.M. Spake from Col. 2d. 6 "As ye have therefore received Christ Jesus the Lord so walk ye in him. I Show how we received C J the [-] 1st By faith. <[--]> In Love to his word, ordinances, Sabbaths, followers. II So walk in him in the same faith love and obedience III The motives we have to do so 1st. In so doing we shall glorify God 2d: obtain the favor & Salvation of God [corner torn] Be useful in to our fellow men. ----- new page (MSS3124_B1_F1_p075.jpg) (1815) on the Conway Ct. (63) Mon July 31:1815. I went to hear Mr. Sewell a Congregationalist Missionary preach. He spake from 5:6 "For in Christ Jesus neither circumscision availeth any thing nor uncircumscision ; but faith which worketh by love" This day had an affecting sense of my weakness & unworthyness. I see I more humillity & holiness of heart. Nothing but humble love will save the soul. Tues. Aug 1:1815. I felt an increasing sense of the dspar -ity of my heart and the necessity of more holiness of heart. My prayr is "O Lord clens me from all my iniquities and save me from all my sins. In the AM held meeting and spake from Luke 19: <(10> ----- new page (MSS3124_B1_F1_p076.jpg) (64) on the Conway Ct A.D. (1815) "For the Son of Man is come to seek and save that which was lost I All men by nature are lost 1st They have lost the image of God in which they were created 2d. They have transgressed Gods holy law & have [---]ed its penalty 3.d They are unable to save themselves II Christ has come to seak & save them 1st By his death in makeing attonement for their sins 2d: By giving his Spirit to re- -new their souls 3d: By sending his servents to in- -vite and exhort them to seek the Lord III Show what is necessary on our part in order to salvation 1st That we repent of our sin 2d. Believe in his son 3d Keep all his Commandments 4th Continue faithful unto death. ----- new page (MSS3124_B1_F1_p077.jpg) (1815) on the Conway Ct. A.D. 1815 (65) Wens. Aug. 2d 1815. My conviction for holiness of heart continues and I cry to God for a clean heart. Thurs. 3d Read Mr. J Wesleys plain account of Christian perfection. And came to the following resolutions. 1st I would strive to mortefy my prid in all things where I dis covered it to exhist in my heart. 2d That I would strive for perfect resignation to the will of God in all things. 3d That I would endeaver to exercise perfect faith in God as far as I was able. I did not feel as though I had attained to this state of grace but felt my need of it and was resolved to seek it. I felt approoved before ----- new page (MSS3124_B1_F1_p078.jpg) (66) In the Conway Ct AD 1815. before God in foorming these resolutions. I felt verry solam and my desire and prayr to god was that he would help me to keep them Fri [--] Aug. 4th. Preached in Hiram to a Congregation composed mostly of Phemales from l.st Tim. 2. 9, 10. "Whose adorning "In like manner also that women adorn themselves in modest apariel, with shame -facedness and sobriety; not with broidered [-] hair, or gold or pearls, or costly array, but (which becometh women pro- -fessing Godliness with good works Sab. Aug. 6. Preached in Effing- -ham in the AM. from Mat. 7: 13-14 "Enter ye in at the strait <[---]> Gate AM. From Col 2:6 "As ye have therefore receive C. Jesus the Lord so walk ye in him" ----- new page (MSS3124_B1_F1_p079.jpg) In the Conway Ct A.D. 1815) (67) Mon. Aug 7: visited the sick I had occasion to reproove some for sin; but I fear was not so plain & painted as I ought to have been for fear of offend- -ing them. O when shall I learn to fear them not, "But to fear him who is able to destroy both soul and body in hell" and him only. Tues. Aug 8. I held meeting in Brownsfield spake from Mat. 7:24 "Therefore whosoever heareth these sayings of mine and doeth them I will likeen him unto a wise man which built his house upon a rock" I Show what doctrines and duties Chris taught in his sermon on the M. 1.st He taught repentance Chap. 5:3-4 2d Purity of heart verse 8.th ----- new page (MSS3124_B1_F1_p080.jpg) (68) In the Conway Ct AD. 1815) [illegible] 22 1st. We are not to be angry in our hearts 2d We are not to have lusts in our hearts <27:32> 3d We are not to swear profanely 33-37 4th We are not to relatiate Ch 5:38-42 5th We are to love our enemies 5:23- 6th. We are not to be hypocrites Ch.6- 7th. We are not to judge one another 8 We are to do to others as we would they should do unto us Ch 7:12 9th We are to pray Ch. 7:7- 10th. obeydience to all the will of God II The obligations we are under to hear and obey Christ 1st He is sent to teach us 2d. We profess to be his deciples 3d He is able to save all to the ut -termost that come unto God by III. The motives which should induce us to become such 1st If we hear and obey Christ we shall be like a man who built his house upon a rock – safe 2d. But if we only hear; but do not obey we shall be like a foolish man who built his house upon the sand [---] [---] dis appointment and destruction [will] ----- new page (MSS3124_B1_F1_p081.jpg) In the Conway Ct. AD. 1815.) (69) Wens. Aug 9.th Preached in Den- -mark from 2:Tim 1:12 "Never- -theless I am not ashamed, for I know whoom I have believed that he is able to keep what I have comitted unto him against that day". I Believers in Christ commit unto him 1.st. Their souls for salvation from sin and protection from harm 2d. They commit to the Lord J.C. Their boddies safety & support. 3d They comit both soul & body for salvation from hell. II Show the Grounds of their Confidence 1.st. Christ is God and therefore able to save unto the uttermost all that come unto God by him 2d. He is faithful and will do it 3d. He has all ready saved them from the guilt, horrer, & pollution of sin, and given them his Holy Sp irit ----- new page (MSS3124_B1_F1_p082.jpg) (70) In the Conway Ct. AD. 1815) as a pledge of eternal life III The effect of this confidence 1st It saves then from fear and <(shame.> shame in afflictions and death 2d. I fills them with hope and Joy in life & in death. Thurs. Aug 10.th Preached in Brownsfield from Gal 3:23d "And whatsoever ye do all to the glory of God" Doctrin We should have an eye to the glory of God in all things. Fri Aug 11.th Preached in Conway from Mat 11:28 "Come unto me all ye that labor and are heavy laden and I will give you rest" I Who invites Christ II Who are invited, penitent sinners, mourning backsliders tempted believers III The blessing promised rest from the guilt, power, and polli- tion of sin hear and rest in herr- hreafter if they are faithful. ----- new page (MSS3124_B1_F1_p083.jpg) In the Conway Ct. A.D. 1815 (71) Sat Aug 13th. Preached in Bart- -let AM from John 3:3d P.M from Mat. 11:28th Mon. Aug 14th. I spent the people in Bartlet. I was introdused to a Mr. Cockrin who has recently come into these parts and pro­- fesses to be a Christian pre- acher; but from his conver- -sation and appearance I know not what to make of him. Tues. held meeting at Br. Odels and expounded Mat. [3] v from verse 3d to verse 12th. Wens preached in Conway from Eph 5:1 Be followers of God as dea children" Thurs Aug 17.th visited the breth -ren of the Church and held prayr meeting in the Evning at Brownsfi[eld] ----- new page (MSS3124_B1_F1_p084.jpg) (72) on the Conway Ct AD. 1815) where we had a refreshing season from the presance of the Lord. Fri. Aug 18 This is our Qt fast for thi Ct. We had Meeting at Mansfield and Br Mansfield a local Deacon on this Ct baptised four persons. I had great liberty in exhortation at the water after he had done baptising the can­- -didates. Sat. Aug 19 Our Qt <1st> Meeting Commensed in Conway Ct at Hiram. As our Pres. Elder did not arive in season I had to preach & spake Heb 3d 12 "Take heed brethren lest there be in any of you an evil heart of unbelief in departing ----- new page (MSS3124_B1_F1_p085.jpg) on the Conway Ct. A.D. 1815. (73) from the living God. I Show what is implied in unbelief it is disbelieving 1st. The word of God 2d. The son of God 3d The work of in creation, providence and redemption 4th. The exhistance of God II The effects of unbelief 1st. It blinds the mind 2d. It hardens the heart 3d It leads to rebellion against God. 4th It dishonors God 5th. It dams both soul & body. III Enforse the caution in the text We should 1st. Guard our hearts against it. 2d Guard against falls doctrins that would promote it. 3d Guard against sin that strengthens it 4th. Pray earnestly for faith. 5th. use the greatest efforts to believe Sab. Aug. 20. A. M I spake from 2 Cor. 3. 20 "Now then we are ambassadors for Christ, as though God did beseach you ----- new page (MSS3124_B1_F1_p086.jpg) (74) in the Conway Ct. AD. 1815) by us, we beseach you 4th To the way of life and salvation God has provided II Speak of the provision God has made for to reconcile man to himself 1st He has given his Son 2d. He has sent his Servents 3d. He has given his Spirit. III Motives to an immediate reconciliation to God 1st Peace with God here 2d And glory to God hereafter. 3d. Distruction awaits us if we re -main unreconciled to God In the P.M. Br. Hillbum preached From John 14:1-3 In my fathers house are many mansions &c. ----- new page (MSS3124_B1_F1_p087.jpg) on the Conway Ct AD. 1815) (75) For this opportunity I bess God there was a general seriousnes among the people and the children of God were edified. I rode in company with Br. Hillbum to Br Coffins in Porter where br. Hillbum preached. Fri Aug 25. Held meeting in Brownsfield spake from Luke 18:22 "Yet lackest thou one thing Sat. 26: Rode to Goshean in Conway visit a sick woman on the way she now mourn her unfaithful -nes to God. What a warning is this to me and others to be faithful to God while in health. I had a good sea- -son in meditation while riding today Sab Aug. 27.th Preached in Goshean ----- new page (MSS3124_B1_F1_p088.jpg) (76) in the Conway Ct AD 1815) AM From Rom 2/4 Gods goodnes leadeth to Rep PM From Luke 18:22 Yet lackest thou one thing Tues. Aug 29: Preached at Br. Odels from Rom 1:17 "The just, shall live by faith" Wens. Aug 30. Held Meeting at Br Randels spake from Mat 6:19-20 "Lay not up for yourselves on earth &c. For two days past I have felt but little of the presence of God and have had but little enjoy­- ment in religious duties. My mind has been troubled with wandering thoughts. My prayer is "O Lord lift upon me the lite of thy countenance" Thurs. Preached in Bartlet from Rom 8:9 "Now if any man ----- new page (MSS3124_B1_F1_p089.jpg) on the Conway Ct A.D. 1815) (77) be in Christ he is a new Creature have not the Spirit of Christ he is none of his" Fri. Preached at Mr. Willsons from Luke 19:10 "For the Son of Man is come to seek and save that which was lost". Sab. Sept. 3d Preached in Lovell from Isa. 55:1 "Ho eevery one that thurs -teth come ye to the water and he that hath no money come ye buy and eat; yea come buy wine and milk without money and without price" In the P.M. Spake Prov. 8:17 "I love them that love me and those that seek ----- new page (MSS3124_B1_F1_p090.jpg) 78) on the Conway Ct AD. 1815 me early shall find me" After preaching met the clan and enjoyed some comfort with my brethren. Tues Sept 5- I held meeting at J. Coffins in Lovell. Discoursed on the the Parable of the Sower Mat 13:3–9. I had but little liberty in speaking. Wens. Sept 5: Studied and visited from house to house Thurs Sept 6.th Rode to Brownsfield and put up with Br. Walker, with whoom I had an agreeable inter- -view. Thurs morn was great -ly blessed in family prayr. I rode to Denmark and held meeting at Br. Millers ----- new page (MSS3124_B1_F1_p091.jpg) on the Conway Ct. 1815) (79) spake from the parable of the Mustard Seed Recorded Mat. 13:31,32. had a good season in preaching Sat Sept. 9th Visited from house to house Sab Sept 10. Preached in Brownsfield from Josh. 24:15 "But as for me and my house we will serve the Lord. In the P.M. I spake from 2. Tim 4:7,8 "I have fought a good fight &c. I was blessed Class Meet ing after preeaching and received two members in Society. Thurs. Held meet­ ing in Hiram Te[--]t Matt 16:19:3 ----- new page (MSS3124_B1_F1_p092.jpg) (80) on the Conway Ct. 1815 concerning the rich man and Lazarus. had a comfortable season in speaking. Thurs Sept 14.th Held meet -ing in Effinghams, spoke from Prov 8:17. Fri. held meeting in Brownsfield Spoke from Luke 14:17 "Come for all things are now ready. Sab. Sept 17. Preached in Goshean A.M. from Mat 6 :33 "But Seek ye for the Kingdom of God and his righ -teousness and all these things will be aded unto you in the P.M. Br. G. Odell im -prooved. We had a good sea -son in Class Meeting and I trust many felt the presence of the Lord ----- new page (MSS3124_B1_F1_p093.jpg) on the Conway Ct. 1815 (8113)[-] Mon. Sept. 18. I held meet -ing at Br. Davises in Conway who is out of health spoke from 2. Tim. 1:12 "Neverthe -less I am not ashamed for I know on whoom I have believed and am perswa -ded that he is able to keep that I have committed unto him against that day" Tues. I felt my mind em- -barrassed, and my soul cast down. We met for prayr meetings at Br. Odels; but it was a dull time to me. I had some comfort in pray in the evning. Wens, held meeting in Bartlet. Fri. held meeting in Conway spoke from ----- new page (MSS3124_B1_F1_p094.jpg) (82) on the Conway Ct. 1815) 1. Tim1:5 "Now the end of the commandment is charity out of a pure heart and of a good conscience and faith unfaigned" Sat. Sept 23d. We had a violent storm of rain. I crossed the Saco River at night, and it was well I did for in the morning it was impassable having overflowed its banks so as to cover all the inter- vale on its banks. Sab. Sept. 24 I rode to Lovell where Br. [-] Mans- -field preached in the AM. I spake in the P.M. from 2. Cor 5:14, 15 "For the love of Christ ----- new page (MSS3124_B1_F1_p095.jpg) on the Conway Ct. 1815) (83) constrineth us; because we thus Judge if one died for all then we were all dead ; And that he died for all that they which live should not henceforth live unto themselves but unto him who died for them and rose again. I was enabled to speak with freedom Mon. I visited, was tried, but endeavored to trust in the Lord Tues. felt unwell. Held meeting at J. Coffins. I have of late felt myself to be an unworthy and unproffit able servent before the Lord. Thurs. I rode to Denmark and preached in a new place ----- new page (MSS3124_B1_F1_p096.jpg) (84) on the Conway Ct. 1815) I felt under trials on my way. Preached from Jobe 22:21 "Acquaint thyself with him and be at peace thereby good shall come unto thee" In the Evening we had prayr meeting and although we were stran- -gers to each other we had a comfortable season to-­ gether and I felt relieved from my trials of mind. Fri. I held meeting at R. Millers. Spake on the parable of the ten virgins Sab. Oct. 1[-] Preached at Hi­- ram. Mon I find I have I am not reconciled as I oug to be to traveling and ----- new page (MSS3124_B1_F1_p097.jpg) on the Conway Ct. 1815) (85) preaching. I see my de -ficiency to be so great for this all important work; and meet with so many trials in this work I find it diffi- -cult to be reconciled to this calling; and yet I dare not give it up for fear of offending the Lord. Tues. I preached in Brow -nsfield from 1 Cor. 13:13 "Now abideth faith, hope and Charity but the greatest of these is Charity Thurs. I held meeting in Effingham spoke from Mat 25:1-13 on the Parable of the ten Virgins. Fri. spake from the same text in Brownsfield. Sab oct. 8th ----- new page (MSS3124_B1_F1_p098.jpg) (86) on the Conway Ct. 18.15 I held meeting at Goshean AM. Text 1. Cor. 13:13 In the PM. spake from Rom. 8:1 "There is therefore now no condemnation to them that are in Christ Jesus who walk not after the flesh but after the Spirit" I Describe the caracters spoken of in the text. 1.st They are in C. J. by a true and living faith 2d They walk not after the flesh see Gal. 5:19-21. 3d They walk after the Spirit. Gal. 5:22, 23. II Show the advantages of such a <(relation.> 1st They are saved from the guilt of sin see the text and Rom 5:1 2d They are saved from the power of sin Rom 8:2 and 6:14. 3d. They have evidence they are the children of God Rom 8:14,16. 4.th. They are heirs of God and joint heirs of Christ Rom 8:17 After preaching met the Class. ----- new page (MSS3124_B1_F1_p099.jpg) on the Conway Ct. 1815. (87) Tues. oct. 10.th Preached at J. Odels of Conway from Rev 22:14 "Blessed are they that at his Com- -mandments [--] Wens, held meet­- ing at Br. E. Randals. Thurs. at Wd. Willsons. Fri. oct. 13: Fasted Rode to Lovell, Felt tempted tried and cast dwn on the way. Sat. oct. 14: our 2d Qt. Meeting for the year commensed at Lovel Br David Killbaum our P. Elder was present and we we had a solom and I trus proff- -eitable season. My soul was comforted and encouraged in the Lord. Mon. I rode in company with Br. Killbaum to Br. Davises in Conway who was baptised and recieved into full connection. This was a duty he had long neglected. ----- new page (MSS3124_B1_F1_p100.jpg) (88) on the Conway Ct. 1815 Mon. and Tues. I was under trials of mind. Wens. I obtained relief and my soul rejoiced in God my Redeemer. Held meeting in Denmark, spoke on the Parable of the barren fig tree Luke 13: 6-9. Fri. Held meeting at R. Millers. The Lord continues to comfort and encourage my soul for which I desire to bless and praise his holy name. Sab. oct 22 I held meeting in Brownsfield. In the Evning held prayr and Class Meeting Received one member into Society. Tues. I rode to Hiram and in the evning expounded Mat 11 Chap Not but little liberty or enjoyment. Tues. I rode to Effingham where I had an ----- new page (MSS3124_B1_F1_p101.jpg) on the Conway Ct. 1815 (89 appointment. But the people did not chose to come out to hear me. They were under the influence of the Christian Baptist here. I had held a Class meeting in the S. House previous to this which had given offence. We have but a few members here and those are very much under the influ -ence of the Christians as they are called. The man in whose house I had generly preached told me I did no good; but much hurt in that place and I could not have the use of his house any more to hold meetings in. The Lord judge between me and this people. I left them ----- new page (MSS3124_B1_F1_p102.jpg) (90) on the Conway Ct. 1815 with a determination not to visit them any more. I have preached to them the Gospel according to the best of my abili- -ties and if they prefer other spirit -ual guides they have a right to make their Choice of this I would not complain. But I think they have not used me well. I left the place with a heavy heart. On my way from this place to Goshen my mind was much comforted. Sab. oct 29. I held meeting at Gochean. My text in the [-].M. was P.s. 34:19 "Many are the afflictions of the Righteous but the Lord delivereth them out of them all. I had some com -fort during the day. My soul feels ----- new page (MSS3124_B1_F1_p103.jpg) on the Conway Ct. 1815 91 humbled before the Lord. Mon. I visited the Sick Tues. I held meeting at Br. Odels. Wens, held meeting at Br. Randels. My mind was much tried before meeting I retired and prayed to God if He had called me to preach He was to give an evidence of it, and support me under my trial and give me the victory over my temptations. I was as­- -sisted in speaking and in the morning Br. Randall gave a two dollar Bill. This was unexpected by me and seemed a providential aid as it served both to encourage me and assist in supplying my wants. ----- new page (MSS3124_B1_F1_p104.jpg) (92) on the Conway Ct. 1815 Thurs. Nov. 2d I held meeting in Bartlet spoke from Mat 24: 44 "Therefore be ye allso ready for in such an hour as ye think not the son of man cometh" Sab. Nov. 5 My appointment was at Lovell. But I was so unwell I was not able to preach on Mon. Evning preached from Ps 34:19. Tues. Held meeting at J. Coffins. Wens. I rode to Chat- -ham arived to late in the day to notefy and not having an ap- -pointment did not have any meet -ing. Thurs Held meeting in Friburgh at Br. Johnsons among the universalists spake on the new berth John 3:3. had freedom in preaching while I explained the nature ----- new page (MSS3124_B1_F1_p105.jpg) on the Conway Ct. 1815 (93) and urged the necessity of the new birth. Fri. Held meeting in Denmark spake from Heb 12:1 "Wherefore seeing &c. Sab. Nov. 12 Preached in Hiram Mon I rode to Baldwin held meeting in the evning at Br Richardsons. Had a congre -gational Missionary to hear me. Spake with some freedom. I had another meeting in Bald­- win on Wens Evning. I enjoied this visit with these brethren verry much and felt my soul encouraged and comforted. Thurs. I returned to Brownsfield and held meeting at Br. Mans -field. Spake with freedom from John 3:14, 15 "As Moses lifted up the serpent in the ----- new page (MSS3124_B1_F1_p106.jpg) (94) on the Conwav Ct. 1815 Fri. Preached at J. Wenches fro Heb 2:3 How shall we esca if we neglect so great salvat Sab Nov. 19. Preached in Conway from March 16:15,16 Go ye unto all the world and preach the Gos... During the preceding week I have enjoied my mind exceeding well for wich I de- -sire to praise the Lord Wens. Held meeting at Br. Ran -dalls Thurs at Bartlet Fri at Wd. Willsons Sab. Nov. 26. Preached at Lovel Mon 27: At J. Coffins from 1 Pet 1:10 For if ye do these things ye shall never fall,, Thurs Nov 30. It being than -ksgiving day. I preached in Brownsfield from Ps 53 1 offer unto God thanksgiv- ----- new page (MSS3124_B1_F1_p107.jpg) on the Conwav Ct 1815 (95) ing and pay thy vows unto the most High. Fri. Held meeting in Denmark. And Sab. in Brownsfield. Mon Dec 4th spent in studying and visiting had but little enjoymen in Religion; but endeavored to put my trust in God. Tues. I held meeting in Hiram and Wens. In Baldwin spake from John 3:14,15. Thurs. I preached in Baldwin from Mat. 11:28 "Come unto me all ye that labor and are heavy laden and I will give you rest,, I had a com- -fortable season in speaking Fri. I returned to Brownsfield and held meeting in the evning. and also On the following Sab. I held meeting at Gochean. ----- new page (MSS3124_B1_F1_p108.jpg) (96) On the Conwav Ct: 1815 Wens. Dec 13 Held meetng at Br. J. Randalls Conway from John 4:24 God is a Spirit and they that worship him must worship him in Spirit and in truth" I show what God is. He is an Eternal, Self exhistant, immutible Spirit. Omnipotant in power omnicent in wisdom, om- -nipresent in his nature. In -finately Holy, Just, Faith -ful andnd Good II Show how He is to be worshiped-We are to employ our understand- -ing to know him and wills to choose him–our affections to love him–according to his will ----- new page (MSS3124_B1_F1_p109.jpg) On the Conway Ct 1815 (9[--] Thurs Dec 15 I held meeting at Bartlet. from Mat. 22:14 "For many are called but few are chosen" Fri Held meeting at Wd Willsons. Sat. Dec 16 This day I am 25 years of age. It is 4 year since I made a public profession of religion. My desire and prayr to God is that I may be more faithful in future than I have been heretofore Sab Dec 17. I held meeting in Lovell. Mon. at J. Coffins Tues. I rode 20 Miles to Chat- -ham where I preache on Wens. spake from John 4:29 "Come see a man that told me all things that ever I did is not this the Christ". ----- new page (MSS3124_B1_F1_p110.jpg) (98) on the Conway Ct. 1815 Thurs. Dec 21 I held meeting at Fryburgh at Br. Johnson Fri Evning I held meeting at Denmark. I have for some time past enjoyed my mind exeeding well in religion. I have had freedom in religious duties, and comfort in reli­ gious contemplation; but Sat. Evn. By laying down my wach to much and not regarding the glory of God as I should I injured my religious enjoyment. May the Lord forgive all my past unfaithfulness and enable me to be more faithful in the future Sab Dec. 24 I preached in Brow -nsfiel AM. From [---] Gal. 3:10 "Cursed is he that ----- new page (MSS3124_B1_F1_p111.jpg) on the Conway Ct. 1815 (99) continueth not in all things written in the book of the law to do them. In the P.M. I spake from Rom 10:4 "For Christ is the end of the law to evry one that for righteous -ness to evry one that believeth,, I had but little liberty or en­- joyment in speaking. Mon Dec. 25. I held meeting in Hiram. Wens I preached in Baldwin Thurs in Browns -field. Fri Dec 29. This is the day of our Qt Meeting fast I endeavored to examine myself before God and find I have to little religion Sat our Qt. Meeting began at Gochen Br. D. Haillboum our P.E. Present. This was a refresh ing season to our souls from the presence of the Lord. ----- new page (MSS3124_B1_F1_p112.jpg) (100) on the Conwav Ct 1816 Mon Jan 1:1816. I started from my Ct to visit my Parents and friends in Lyman N. H. On my way I stopt in Bart -let and held meeting among the Freewill Baptist Brethren in Bartlet. Spake with freedom from Rev 22:17 "And the Spirit and the bride say come, and let him that heareth say come, and let him that is a thirst come and whosoever will let him take of the water of Life freely". I arived at my fathers on Wens. And found my parents and friends in tolerable health The following Sab I preached in Lyman from Heb 12:2 "Looking unto Jesus [--] ----- new page (MSS3124_B1_F1_p113.jpg) on the Conway Ct 1816 (101) During this visit I had a pe­- culiar trial. My Parents being aged and infirm and kneeding my assistance very much at home: I tried to perswade myself it would be as well for me to desist traveling at the close of the year, and return home to live with my parents, and perhaps preach as a local preacher, as it would to con -tinue to travel. And I ven -tured to sudjest it to them at which they seemed to rejoice. No soner had I done this than my mind became dark and distress -ed. It was in vane I en­- deavored to justify the cau[--] ----- new page (MSS3124_B1_F1_p114.jpg) (102) On the Conway Ct. 1816 thinking I could by doing so liten the cares and la­- bors of my Parents. I was silenced by the following scripttures viz "He that lov- -eth father or mother more than me is not worthy of me Mat 10:37 "Follow me and let the dead burry their ded Mat 8:22 "And evry one that hath forsaken, houses or brethren, or sisters, or fa -ther or mother, or wife or children or lands for my names sake shall receive an hundred fold, and shall inherit eternal life Mat 19:29 "For necessity is laid upon me yea, wo is me if I preach not the Gospel. For if I do this thing willingly I have a reward; but if a gainst my will a dispen- ----- new page (MSS3124_B1_F1_p115.jpg) On the Conway Ct. 1816 (103) -sation of the Gospel is com- -mited unto me 1. Cor. 9=16 And I had no rest in mind untill I gave up at least for the present. Thurs. Jan 11 I took an affectionate leave of my Parents and friends to return to my Ct. This was a trying scene to me. The thoughts of leav­- -ing kind Parents, who were aged and infirm to wander abroad among strangers whose hospitality I had often foun[-] to be verry small, and whose sympathies were verry cold was such a trial to me I could hardly endure it. I however tok leave of my friends with aparent com ----- new page (MSS3124_B1_F1_p116.jpg) (104) on the Conway Ct 1816 -posier; but as I rode on my way my feelings became so excited I groaned a- -lowd as I traveled the road. My conflict of mind was so great between a sens of duty which urged me to travel and preach the gospel, and my inclination which urged me to desist and live at home with my Parents that they seem -ed like two conflicting armies; and the contest was so sharp it seemed as though my soul and body would allmost part. But at lenght a sense of duty prevailed even my inclination and I resolved by the grace of ----- new page (MSS3124_B1_F1_p117.jpg) On the Conway Ct 1816 (10[-] God, I would return to my Ct. and try to be more faithful than I ever had been; and I never would ceas traveling and preaching until I could do it with a clear conscie [page is torn] if I died in the ditch doing so. No sooner had I come to this determination than my mind seteled down into a calm peaceful frame and I had a blessed season in the Evning in preaching at Bethlehem from Ps 34: [page torn] Many are the afflictions of the righteous but the Lord delivereth them out of the all,, ----- new page (MSS3124_B1_F1_p118.jpg) (106) On the Conway Ct 1816 Fri. Jan 12th I persued my journey on my return to my Ct. nothwithstanding I had to travel in a severe snow storm. My mind was calmly stayed upon God Sat Jan 13. The traveling became so bad and my horse being lame I could not reach my appointment on the Sab. I went to hear a Christian preacher at Bart let, who denied the im- -mortality of the soul in the wicked, contending they wou be burned up at the day of Judment Soul and body thus ending their exhistance and suffering together. ----- new page (MSS3124_B1_F1_p119.jpg) On the Conway Ct 1816 (107) A man by the Name of Coch -rain who professed to be a Christian was present and vindicated the same doctrin. They gave me a chance to speak and I em- -prooved it in testifying against their centiments. Mon. I rode to Denmark and held meeting at R. Mill -ers. Spake with freedom from 1. Cor. 16:22 "If any man love not our Lord Jesus C. let him be Anathama Mar- a natha Tues. I spent in writing and visiting from house to house - found the people I conversed with on the subject of religion tender ----- new page (MSS3124_B1_F1_p120.jpg) (108) on the Conwav Ct. 1816 Wens. Jan 17. Visited from house to house conversed with all I met with on the subject of religion and prayed with the families I visited. In the evning I had a good season in secret prayr. Thurs. Visit -ed a No of families. In the evning meet a few breth -ren in prayr meeting at Brownsfield and were com -forted together by prayr and exhortation Sab. Jan 21. Preached in Goshean. Mon. Held meet -ing at J. Odels. Spake from Rev. 3:20 "Behold I stand at the door and knock &c. Wens. Preached in Bart- ----- new page (MSS3124_B1_F1_p121.jpg) on the Conway Ct 1816 (109) let at a Mr. Wickses. Spake from Acts. 24:25 "And as he reasoned of righteous -ness temperence and judg -ment to come [-]Felix trem­ bled [--]. I felt solom in speaking and the people appeared attentive in hear -ing. Thurs. I held meeting in Bartlet. Fri. I had meet -ing at J. Coffins in Conway Sat. Rode to Lovell. As I rode through Friburgh Vil. I felt a desire to do something for their salvation; but the door does not appear to be opened for that as yet. I fear the people in that place are slumbering in their sins. ----- new page (MSS3124_B1_F1_p122.jpg) (110) on the Conway Ct. 1816 Sab. Jan. 28. I preached in Lovell. Mon. at J. Coffins Lovell from Heb 2:3 "How shall we escape if we neg- cet so great salvation. Tues I held meeting at Phinehas Eastmans Lovell and Wens at Chatham from Luke 12:32 "Fear not little flock it is your Fathers good pleas ure to give you the King -dom Thurs. preached at Br Johnsons Friburgh among the universalists from Mat 7:13 14 "Enter ye in at the strait gate [--]. had a universalist preacher out to hear me Fri. I preached at R Miller Denmark from Acts 24:25 "And as he reasoned of right &c. I had unusual liberty in speaking. ----- new page (MSS3124_B1_F1_p123.jpg) On the Conway Ct. 1816 (111) Sab. Feb. 4th. I preached in Hiram AM From Rev. 2: 4, 5 "Nevertheless I have somewat against because thou hast left thy first love &c In the AM I spake from Rev. 3:20 "Behold I stand at the door and kn <(ock> Mon. I held meeting at Browns -field Text Mark 16:15, 16 "Go ye into all the world and preach the Gospel &c. Tues. I thought I would go one more to Effingham and see if there was any open -ing for me therere. When I arived there I found the man sick who refused to let me preach in his house last fall (see page 89) he ap -peard glad to see me Wens I held meeting in the place. ----- new page (MSS3124_B1_F1_p124.jpg) (112) on the Conway Ct. 1816 Thurs Feb 8. I held meeting at Br. J Coffins Porter Fri. at Brownsfield Sab. Feb 11. I preached at Gochean. Mon held meet. -ing in Conway spake from Acts 26:28 Allmost thou perswadest me to be a Chris<-tian,,>, of late I have not enjoyed myself in religion verry well owing as I think to my unwillingness to bear reproach and privation for Christs sake Tues. I had meeting at Br. Randels Conway. Text Ps 34:11 For the Lord is a sun and shield the Lord will give grace and glory and no good thing will be withhold from them that ----- new page (MSS3124_B1_F1_p125.jpg) on the Conway Ct. 1816 (113) walk uprightly" Wens I held meeting at Bartlet. Fri I held meeing in Conway. I think much of my aged parents who so much need my assistance at home. May the Lord direct me in all things. Sab. Feb 18. I held meeting at Lovell. After meeting old Mr Hillgore invited me home to supper. I improoved the opportunity to exhort him to seek the Lord This he did not receive verry kindly and said some hard things to me. I made but little reply but committed my case to God in prayr. Mon at J.C. Text Jonah 2:8, 9 ----- new page (MSS3124_B1_F1_p126.jpg) (114) on the Conwav Ct 1816 Tues. Feb 20. I preached in Lovel from 1. Tim 6:6 “But godliness with contentment is great gain. To day I felt my soul humbled before the Lord and find it good to be in the valley of humilia­- tion. Wens. I held meeting in Chatham and spake from Mat 16:26 “For what is a man proffeited if he shall gain the whole world and loose his own soul,, Thurs. At Br. Johnsons Frib -urg. Frid. at Denmark from Mat 20:6 “Why stand ye here all the day Idle Sat. Feb. 24 our fourth Qt meeting begun at Browns -field Br. Hillbum our [P.C.] present and we had a solom season to our souls ----- new page (MSS3124_B1_F1_p127.jpg) on the Conway Ct. 1816 (115) Mon. I held meeting at Hiram spake from Mat. 6:3[-] "But seek ye first the Kingdom of God and his righteous -ness and all these things shall be aded unto you. Wens. Held meeting at Effing -ham Thur at Porter Fri at Brownsfield Sab. March 3d. I preached at Gochean Mon at Br Odels from Rom 14:17 "For the King -dom of God is not meat and drink but righteousness and peace and joy in the holy Ghost. Tues held meeting at Br. Randals Conway spake from Eel. 12:13 Let us hear the conclusion of the whole matter fear God and keep his commandments. For this is the whole duty of man For he will bring evry work into Judgmt ----- new page (MSS3124_B1_F1_p128.jpg) (116) on the Conway Ct. 1816 with evry secret thing wheth -er it be good or bad. For the week past my mind has been in a submissive frame. Wens I held meet­- ing at a Mr Lucys in Con -way. Thurs. preached in Bart -let. Fri at M. Willsons. Sab. March 10th At Lovell Mon at. Br. Coffins Lovell after preaching held a class meeting and received a blessing. Wens held meet -ing in Chatham at a Mr Farringtons a new preach- -ing place to me. I spake with freedom from Mark 16:15,16. When I have lib- -erty in speaking I some- -times feel an inclination to be proud of my performance This is a proof of the de- -pravity of my heart. It leads ----- new page (MSS3124_B1_F1_p129.jpg) on the Conway Ct. 1816 (117) me to cry to God for a clean heart and a right Spirit. Thurs. I preached at Chatham from James 4:7 "Submit your- -selves therefore to God Resist the Devil and he will flee from you Draw nigh to God and he will draw nigh to you &c. Fri preached in Denmark Sab. March 17. I held meet- -ing at Hiram from 1 Pet:4 17, 18 "For the time is come that judgment must begin at the house of God and if it first begin at us: wat shall the end be of them that obey not the gospel of God. And if the righteous scarsely be saved where shall the ungod- ly and the sinner appear" In the PM from Mat 22:4 "Come unto the marriage" ----- new page (MSS3124_B1_F1_p130.jpg) (118) On the Conway Ct 1816 Mon March 18. I rode to Bald -win where I met Br. John Adams their Qt preacher We had meeting in the evning where we both preach -ed Br A. from Heb 11:24- 26 "By faith Moses when he was come to years refewsed &c. I spake from Rom 13:14 "But put ye in the Lord Jesus Christ And make no pro- -vision for the flesh to ful -fill the lusts thereof" I felt verry much intrested in hearing Br. Adams re- late his experience in the blessing of perfect love. I was sensable he enjoyed something I did not; but I felt resolved to seek for it, more eanest- -ly than I ever had done Tues. I rode to Brownsfield on my way felt my soul ----- new page (MSS3124_B1_F1_p131.jpg) On the Conway Ct 1816 (119) drawn out in prayr to God after more holiness of heart I felt encourage to pray and wait the hour when Christ should make me truly clean. In the evning I prea ched at Br. Mansfields from Mat. 5:8 "Blessed are the pure in heart for they shall see God" Wens. I Held meeting in Effing- -ham. Thurs. In Porter to a congregation of youth from Ecl 12:1 "Remember now thy Creator in the day of thy youth &c Fri. In Brow -nsfiel Sab at Gochean. From 1. Sam 13:24 "Only fear the Lord and serve him in truth with all thy heart, for consider how great things he hath done for the" In the PM. I spake ----- new page (MSS3124_B1_F1_p132.jpg) (120) on the Conway Ct 1816 from Jer 8:20 "The hear- -vest is past the summer is ended and we are not saved". Mon. I held meet -ing at Br. Olels in Conway Tues at Br. Randlls Thurs at Bartlet Fri at Wd Willsons from 1 Thes 5:19 Quench not the Spirit". Sab March 31. At Lovel I spake in the AM from John 15:2 "Evry branch in me that beareth not fruit he taketh away and evry branch that beareth fruit he purgeth it that it may bring forth more fruit" In the PM. I spake from Mat 5:8 "Blessed are the pure in heart for they shall see God" After preaching we had a prayr meeting ----- new page (MSS3124_B1_F1_p133.jpg) On the Conway Ct. 1816 (121) and the Lord met with and blessed us while together. Mon. I went to J. Coffins but sickness prevented our having a meeting. Wens. I attended a prayr meeting at Chatham- Thurs. I preached at a place called Cold River. Fri. April 5th. Held meet- -ing at Denmark spake from Luke 14:23 "Go ye out and compell them to come in that my house may be filled" Sab. April 8 I preached at Brownsfield. AM. spake from Mat 13:58 "And he did not many mighty works there because of their unbelief" In the PM I spake from John 5 6: "Wilt thou be made whole[-] ----- new page (MSS3124_B1_F1_p134.jpg) (121) on the Conway Ct 1816 Sab. evning - we haad a prayr meeting and the Lord bless -ed us. Mon. Evning I spake to a few people from 1. Cor. 7:29 "The time is short" Visited a sis- who was sick found her resigned to the will of God. Wens I rode to Effingham where I had an appointment at a Mr. Stewards; but was received with great coldness. Put up over night with Mr. Milicans Milicans. his wife is a member of the Church and I think a verry good woman- Thurs. I rode to Porter and spake from the para- ble of the sower. Mat 13:3 ----- new page (MSS3124_B1_F1_p135.jpg) on the Conway Ct 1816 (122) Fri I rode in a tedious storm to to Brownsfield; but the People did not come out, so as to have a meeting Sab. April 15: Held meet -ing at Gochean [---] from John 14:6 "I am the way the truth, and the life" In the PM from John 15:2 "Evry branch in me" To day I have felt the risings of pride in my heart but I cried unto the Lord and he delivered me Mon. I have peace in my Lord, notwithstanding the conflicts I have at times with my proud heart and subtle foe. Tues. I held meeting at Mr Ws. a new place I spoke from John 3:3 "Ye must be bom again We had a good meeting. ----- new page (MSS3124_B1_F1_p136.jpg) (123) on the Conway Ct 1816 Thurs April 19: At Bartlet spake from Acts 20:21 "Testefying repentance toards God annd faith toards our Lord Jesus Christ" Fri at Wd Will- -sons Sab. April 22 At Lovell AM from John 9:27 "one thing I know, that wereas I was blind now I see In the PM Br. D. Mansfield preached The people in this place appear serious. There is some indications the Lord is about to revive his work among them Wens. I held meeting at Chatham spake from Ezek 33:11 "As I live saith the Lord God I delight not in the death of him that die the wicked but that ----- new page (MSS3124_B1_F1_p137.jpg) on the Conway Ct 1816 (124) he turn from his way and live" &c. Fri I held a meeting at at Denmark Sab at Hiram my text was "Blessed are the peace makers for they shall be called the Children of God" Ye are the salt of the earth &c Wens at Denmark on self exhamination from 2 Cor. 13:5 I had a good time in preaching and the people appeared serious. Thurs attend ed the funeral of FR a young woman who lived in Brownsfieeld and died under peculiar circumstances. She has a widowed mother to la- -ment her untimely death (She had a Child though unmarried and died soon after its birth) ----- new page (MSS3124_B1_F1_p138.jpg) (125) on the Conway Ct 1816 I took for my text the follow- -ing words "The wicked is driv -en away in his wickedness; but the righteous hath hope in his death" Prov. 14:22. Fri. Had meeting in Browns -field. My text was Ps. 50:22 "Now consider this ye that forget God lest he tare you in pieces and there be none to deliver. Sab. May 5. I preached in Gochean AM from John 21:15 "Simon son of Jonas lovest thou me, in the PM, I spake from 2. Cor. 13:5 "Examine yourselves whether ye be in the faith; proove your own selves" Tues I preach­- -ed at br Ws of Conway from 1. Cor. 15:58 "Therefore my be­- -loved brethren be ye stedfast unmoovable allways abound- ----- new page (MSS3124_B1_F1_p139.jpg) on the Conway Ct 1816 126 ing in the work of the Lord, for as much as ye know your labor is not in vane in the Lord. I had but little freedom in speaking, but enjoyed sweet peace of mind when I had done. Wens May 8. 1 held meet- -ing Bro. Randalls took for my text "For I determined not to know anything among you but Jesus Christ and him crusified" 1. Cor. 2:2. I spake with more freedom than I did yesterday. Thurs. I preached in Bartlet from Luke 10:42 "But one thing is needful Fri I held meeting at Wd. Willsons my text was 1 Pet. 1:24,25 "For all flesh is grass and the glory of man as the flower of grass &c. ----- new page (MSS3124_B1_F1_p140.jpg) (127) on the Conway Ct. 1816 Sab May. 12 I was in Chatham but a violent Storm preven- -ted our having meeting Tues. I preached in Lovel From Rom 5:12 "Wherefore as by one man sin entered into the world and death by sin, so death passed upon all men for that all have sined" Wens. preached at J. Coffins Lovell. Fri. I meet Br. J. Adams at Baldwin and heard him preach He appears to be much en- -gage in the work of the Lord. We had a temporary Qt Meet -ing at Baldwin I preached in Sat. Br. Lewis a local elder from Goram Main Sab. AM and Br Adams in the P.M. This was a ----- new page (MSS3124_B1_F1_p141.jpg) on the Conway Ct 1816 (128) refreshing season to our Souls O how precious is the love of God! How pre cious is the communion of Saints! Tues. I preached in Hiram from 1. Pet 3:8,9 "Finally be ye all of one mind having compassion one of another, love as breth -ren, be pitiful, be courte- -ous not rendering evil for evil or railing for railing but contrawise blessing knowing ye are thereunto called that ye should in herit a blessing" Wens at Denmark Text Rom 1:17 "The just shall live by faith" Thurs. at Brownsfield My text was 1. Pet. 3:15 "But ----- new page (MSS3124_B1_F1_p142.jpg) (129) On the Conway Ct 1816 Sanctify the Lord God in your hearts and be ready allways to give an answe to every man that asketh you a reason of the hope that is within him you with meekness and fear.. Fri May 24. At Brownsfield Text 11 Pet. 4:7 "But the end of all things is at hand be ye therefore sober and watch unto prayer.. Sab. May 26. I had meeting in Gochean and witnessed some seriousness in the cong -regation two young persons manifested a desire for religion in conference af- ter preaching. Mon I spent in visiting my brethren from house to house and found some of them cold in religion ----- new page (MSS3124_B1_F1_p143.jpg) on the Conway Ct. l816 (130) Tues. May 28. Held meeting at Ws My text was Mat 5: 4 "Blessed are they that mourn for they shall be comforted" Wens: Held meeting at Br. Randalls in Conway Thurs. at Bartlet. My subject of discourse was the parable of the Musterd seed recorded Mat. 13:45,46. I have for some time back past enjoyed sweet peace and con -solation in the Lord for which I desire to bless his holy name Fri at Wd. Willsons Sab. June 2d. I spent in Lovel I spake in AM from Luke 5 31 "They that be whole need not a Phisician but they that are sick" In the PM from Mat 5:3" Blesed are the poor in spirit for theirs is the kingdom of heaven ----- new page (MSS3124_B1_F1_p144.jpg) (131) on the Conway Ct 1816 Mon. June 3d I held Meeting at Br Butters in Lovell. Tues. I rode to Chatham and preached from Luke 2:10 "Fear not for behold I bring you glad good tidings of great joy which shall be to all people" Thurs. I held meet­- ing at Fryburgh my text was 1. Tim. 1:15 "This is a faith -ful saying and worthy of all acceptation, that Christ Jesus came into the world to save sinners of whoom I am chief" Fri I rode to Denmark and held meeting my text was John 3:3 "Ye must be born again" Sab. June 9th I spent at Hiram My text in the AM was Malachi 3:7 "Then shall you return and desern between the righteous ----- new page (MSS3124_B1_F1_p145.jpg) on the Conway Ct 1816 (132) and the wicked between him that serveth God and him that serveth him not" In the PM I spake from Luke 2:10 "Fear not &c. Sab. June 16: I spent in Gochean In the AM I preached from in the P.M. We held a social meeting for Ex- -hortation and prayr. The brethren were engaged and the spirit of reformation appears to be prevailing among the people. I think the prospect for a revival of religion in different parts of the Ct was never so good since I came on to it as it is now. O my soul praise the Lord for his goodness to me and the children of men ----- new page (MSS3124_B1_F1_p146.jpg) (133) on the Conway Ct 1816 I preached and visited from house to house and found some determined to serve the Lord. Among this ono is Esqr odel of Conway Fri at Bartlet I have a solom meeting. My text was Mat 24:14 "And this Gospel of the kingdom shall be preached in all the world for a wit- ness among all nations and then shall the end come Sab. June 23: I exhorted the people to examine themselves whether they were in the faith from 2 Cor. 13:5. In PM I spake from Rom. 12:1 "I beseach you theerefore brethren by the mercies of God see ----- new page (MSS3124_B1_F1_p147.jpg) on the Conway Ct 1816 (134) Tues I preached at Chat- ham from Mat 23:37 "O Jerusalem Jerusalem thou that killest the prophets and stonest them that are sent unto the how often would I have gathered thy chil- -dren together as a hen doth gather her chickings under her wings and ye would not" Wens At Fryburgh Frid at Denmark Sab. June 30 att Brownsfield A.M. From Ezek 33:11 "As I live saith the Lord &c In the P.M. from Isaiah 22 "Look unto me all the ends of the earth and be ye savvd for I am God and there is none else" ----- new page (MSS3124_B1_F1_p148.jpg) (135) on the Conway Ct 1816 Spent the following week in holding meetings and visit­ - -ing as usual Sab July 7: I spent in Chat -ham After preaching held a prayr meeting, and spake to all present personally about the state of their souls. I feel it my duty to visit from house to house converse with the individ­- -ual member of the differ- -families and pray with them. Although this is a great Cross for me to bear I cannot satisfy my con­- science with out performing it. O that the Lord would help me in this and evry duty. Bless and prosper my ----- new page (MSS3124_B1_F1_p149.jpg) on the Conway Ct 1816: (136) feeble efforts to build up his Kingdom among men. Sab. July 14:I spent in Con -way. My Text in AM was Luke 14:11 "For whoso -eve exhalteth himself shall be abased and he that hum -bleth himself shall be ex -halted" In the PM I spake from Num 10:29 "Come than with us and we will do the good for God hath spoken good con -cerning Israel". I had a good season in preach -ing and the people appeared tender and attentive. We held a prayr meeting after preaching. ----- new page (MSS3124_B1_F1_p150.jpg) (137) on the Conway Ct 1816 Tues July :16. I preached in Lovell. It being a time of uncomon drouth I chose for my text Hab 3:17, 18 "Although the fig tree shall not blossom, neither shall fruit be in the vines; the labor of the olive shall fail, and the fields shall yield no meat; the flock shall be cut off from the fold and there shall be no herd in the stall, yet will I rejoice in the Lord, I will Joy in the God of my salvation" At the close of the meeting we appointed the following Fri as a day of fasting and prayr on account of the pres ent drauth. ----- new page (MSS3124_B1_F1_p151.jpg) on the Conway Ct 1816 (138) Thurs July 17. I held meet at J. Coffins, and Fri. returned to the Lower part of the town to attend fast with the people there. I preached on the occasion from Jonah 3:7, 8 I was greatly assisted while I shewed what was to keep an acceptable fast to the Lord and what was a suitable occasion of fasting and exhorted the people with repentance humiliation and prayr They would seek unto God to send them rain litterally and send down the shower of his grace spiritually. This was a solom season to me & I trust to all present. ----- new page (MSS3124_B1_F1_p152.jpg) (139) on the Conway Ct 1816 After preaching at Lovell I rode to Wd Willsons, where I had an appointment in the P.M. Here I meet with Br. James Ja[-]vis who was appointed to Conway Ct as my success- -or. He infomed my my appointment the present Conferen year was Sand- -wich, Ct. N.H. I have preached 265 sermons since I came in to Con- -way Ct. And noth with- -standing I have had many trials, arising in part from a sense of my unworthyness and my unproffeit -ableness, [-] and in part because religion was not at ----- new page (MSS3124_B1_F1_p153.jpg) on the Conway Ct 1816 (140) so low an ebb with many yet I feel as though the Lord had been good to me granted me many blessings, and gracious­- -ly acepts me through Jesus Chris my adore -able Redeemer. O may ever more love him with all my heart and serve him with all my strength that when I fail on earth he may receive me to himself in Haven. J. H. Scarritt ----- new page (MSS3124_B1_F1_p160.jpg) Mens words are a poor expo nent of ther thought--Nay [---] thought itself is but a poor exponent of that inward un[---] Mystery. Wherefrom both Thought, and action have their birth. No man can explain himself. Can get him- self - [-]y [---] Carlyle